Day 21

I am no longer weighing myself daily-that really messes with me.  I am now back to a weekly weigh in.  Continuing with 1200 calories per day and daily workouts.  No longer counting carbs-still avoiding all but “healthy carbs”. still avoiding sugar.

Daily Menu:

Breakfast:  Chicken sausage scrambled in egg whites. 100 calorie of whole wheat bread with 1T peanut butter.

Lunch: 1/2 cucumber, handful of tomatoes, 2 low fat cheese sticks.

Snack. mixed nuts-30

Supper:  Sweet potato-roasted. 3/4 cup taco meat.

I am so craving cheese burgers & fries, pizza & wings.  Thanks to my son I averted a major slip tonight. I told him we were thinking of going out for wings and he said-“don’t do it mom”-made it so much easier for me.

 

 

Day 17 weigh in

147.9-this is so much fun…

Becoming Real…I must become a lover of real life in all its complexity and uncertainty…from Sarah Ban Breathnach.

Can you accept just how restrictive you must be in order to loose this weight and not resent it or be annoyed by it? Or are the demands of this something you cannot do gracefully?  No-you can do this, you are doing this, but as with all things in Realville, its God’s timeline, not yours. Stay the course.

Stop being resentful that just eliminating sugar and restricting carbs is not enough and that you must count every calorie and keep those daily calories at or below 1200. Stop being so impatient with the slow pace and remain in a place of acceptance and self-love. You aren’t going to loose 15 pounds in two weeks, it just isn’t going to come off that easy for you-get over it once and for all, and continue doing what you know to do and be real and not resentful. You are what you think-remember that.

Day 16 menu

Breakfast: two egg whites, about 2 oz steak, a half an avacado. cheesecake muffin

Lunch:  mixed greens, tomatoes, cucumber, about 1/4 cup shrimp salad, 2T blue cheese dressing, 1 reduced fat stick sargento cheese

Supper: chicken breast with spinach dip & salsa, grilled veggies.

Day 16 weigh in

146.2. 

Day 15 menu

Breakfast: two egg whites, ham 1/2 avacado

Lunch: Banana, 3 slices turkey pastrami

Supper:  1/2 salmon fillet. handful grape tomatoes

day 15 weigh in

147.3

Day 14 menu

Breakfast: 2 egg whites. 4 oz ham. 1/2 avacado.

Snack: Apple and 2 sargento reduced fat cheese sticks

Lunch: 1 meatball and vegetables with tomato sauce & mozzerella. cheese cake muffin

Supper: mixed greens, 1/2 cucumber, 15 cherry tomatoes,  3 olives, blue cheese dressing, about 3 tablespoons. 

 

Day 14 weigh in

147.4-back down a pound. I have given up on understanding weight loss. I am trying to come to peace with the slowness of the process.  I think my greatest frustrations come when I have expectations and become impatient. Weight loss is so very difficult-and the older I get the harder it gets. I pray that once I get to my goal weight I remain vigilant and never have to go through this again.  I think I will, I think I have reached a level of acceptance and peace with how I must live in order to be at the weight and fitness level I desire. I have also started back with inputing my daily foods into a calorie counting app to keep a very close eye on intake-I don’t like doing that, it gets old but just thinking I am keeping my calories at 1200 or less and eliminating sugar and keeping carbs down is just not enough, not fun but I feel it is necessary.  I am even considering a food scale-this goes way beyond what I want to do and believe in but I can do anything for a short amount of time and if it helps me to loose more consistently I will do it.  I just really want to consistently loose at least 2 lbs a week so I realize I need to do more to achieve that goal. I have rebelled against such restrictions and documentation up til now but feel in order to reach my goals I must relent. Where I struggle is that I know I cannot do this long term and when I transition into the maintenance phase I have to have a plan that I can follow-consistently-and weighing my food and counting calories will be hard for me. So I think about that difficult maintenance time often and have to develop a concrete lifestyle plan for when that time arrives.

I have begun to explore this phenomena of the after burn effect when exercising. I  have known about it for years and have practiced it to an extent but am becoming more informed about it and am going to incorporate it into my workouts regularly.  I am beyond the age of super intense hours long workouts but short bursts I can do. It is great for the heart rate and fat loss.  I just need to be consistent, nothing new there…

Day 13 menu

Breakfast:  1 egg white. 1 slice deli ham. 1 cheesecake muffin

Snack: 2 reduced fat sargento cheese sticks 1/2 cucumber

Lunch: Chicken sausage, 1T ketchup, mixed greens, 2 T Feta cheese, 4 calamata olives, EVOO & vinegar

Supper: 3 extra lean meatballs made with Elk meat & no bread crumbs-used flax meal, homemade sauce & mixed veggies with mozzarella.

Day 13 weigh in

148.3. This is so crazy-how can I be gaining weight?  Ugh…maybe its muscle…who knows…I’ve dramatically increased exercise and weight resistance and continue to eliminate sugar and restrict carbs and  my calorie intake is not excessive-I know how to control caloric intake too, how can I not be loosing weight?  I am not going to give up though, I just see this as a test of my resolve. I will loose this weight.